Because the hurt had taken hold for so long. The hurt lingers still in the shadows, comes out in moments like these that bring it to the forefront. At least hiding her face against him is an option to keep her breathing mostly steady.
"I almost wish I had cursed him, like he thought, although... God, Ed, his girls..."
There's a crackle in her voice, more from weariness than any actual tears.
"They're going to grow up thinking-- that's what it means to l-love people a-and it's just... It's awful."
It reminds her, too much, of what it had been like when she'd first been pulled in by Elliot Reynolds. Of the years of abuse that she had to heal from-- not just from her son's biological father, but her own.
Thank God Elliot had left her. Thank God Caleb had disowned her. Thank God she had Edgar and Andrew and Argine to teach her what it meant to love someone the right way.
There's an actual, physical shudder at the thought of all that could've been.
/LOTS OF IT /BUT ALSO LOTS OF LOVE
Because the hurt had taken hold for so long. The hurt lingers still in the shadows, comes out in moments like these that bring it to the forefront. At least hiding her face against him is an option to keep her breathing mostly steady.
"I almost wish I had cursed him, like he thought, although... God, Ed, his girls..."
There's a crackle in her voice, more from weariness than any actual tears.
"They're going to grow up thinking-- that's what it means to l-love people a-and it's just... It's awful."
It reminds her, too much, of what it had been like when she'd first been pulled in by Elliot Reynolds. Of the years of abuse that she had to heal from-- not just from her son's biological father, but her own.
Thank God Elliot had left her. Thank God Caleb had disowned her. Thank God she had Edgar and Andrew and Argine to teach her what it meant to love someone the right way.
There's an actual, physical shudder at the thought of all that could've been.