The shake of his head is insistent. The twitch of his fingers, barely kept back from reaching out again.

"Not-- as if nothing's happened. But it's-- it's not like people don't leave and come back. It just takes-- It just takes really-- wanting to be here again."

When people came back without determination, they often left again. When they came because they were coming home, they tended to find ways to make their lives work again.

"Look, it's--" He has to bite himself back. He has to take a deep breath. "I should go-- see Arik. But... but think about it. Talk to Andrew about it. Please. I'm begging you."